Need to remember to write out my fantasies. Because there is some good stuff in there that would be GREAT to use in my novels... :)

The entire campus of Oakland University was closed on Sunday and Monday, canceling my last evil German class. So Monday night, all my friend and I did was work on our take home final. It was actually a lot of fun, only for that fact that I was hanging out with my best friend. We first went out to grab a late lunch, then stopped at best buy, didn't find a thing.

Then after stopping at a yummy custard stand, we went back to her house and started working on the "evil" test. This was around 4pm. We didn't finish the test until AFTER 8PM...but of course we were watching the Wings game...such as sad, sad game. We were cursing.

Currently I am in my history class. Sitting in at an evil desk that is uneven and the guy next to me just keeps moving around and also sleeping.

Now comes the time in my life where I need to start looking for a real job. No, no, a career. First off, I am completely nervous. The other day, my friend and I were goofing off on this one website, and at the bottom we noticed it had a link for internships. Well we started looking through it and I actually found one that I will be applying for. I've retouched my resume, including an objective to fit with the internship position. Now all I need to do is write a cover letter (which I plan on doing between classes today.)

I really just hate doing new things. I mean, I have already applied and interviewed for an internship last spring (and i didn't get it) but at least I have a real interview under my belt. Hopefully I will receive a response from the organization and at least get an interview.

A little plan if I do get it. Even though it is paid, i'm betting there won't be any insurance. So, I will go to full time with white castle (/me shivers at the thought) and only work days there. THEN, the description says must be able to work evenings, weekends and holidays when needed, so it should work out.

Well, I need to rush off to my boring history class.

Toodles,
Jen

1. Pick 10 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search or other search functions.


1. But wouldn't it be great if number one this Christmas wasn't some smug teenager but an old ex-heroin addict searching for a comeback at any price? All those young popsters come Christmas Day, they'll be stretched out naked with a cute bird balancing on their balls and I'll be stuck in some dingy flat with me manager, Joe, ugliest man in the world, fucking miserable because our fucking gamble didn't pay off. So if you believe in Father Christmas, children, like your Uncle Billy does, buy my festering turd of a record. 
-Love Actually - Sarah

2. I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. 
-When Harry Met Sally - Sarah

3.In vain have I struggled, it will not do. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you. 
 - Pride and Prejudice (A&E Mini Series) -Sarah

4. -Wait a minute... nice boys don't kiss like that.
- Oh, yes, they fucking do.

5. My characters shall have, after a little trouble, all that they desire.

6. I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms.

7. The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.

8. Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin' else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who needs reasons when you've got heroin?

9. It was sort of sweet actually - I mean, I know she's an actress and all that, so she can deliver a line - but she said that she might be as famous as can be - but also... that she was just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.

10. Dear Lord baby Jesus, or as our brothers in the south call you, "Jezus," we thank you so much for this bountiful harvest of Dominos, KFC, and the always delicious Taco Bell. I just want to take time to say thank you for my family. My two beautiful, beautiful, handsome stricking sons, Walker, and Texas Ranger, or TR as we call him. And of course my red hot smokin' wife Carley, who is a stone cold fox.   - Talladagea Nights - Chaya

lmfao! watched little mermaid today in class. it had me smiling singing along and shaking my head at how for all the trouble she got into how she didnt have to lose anything. going to read the fairytail tomorrow or at least b4 class thursday afternoon. much love, jen

Back from vacation from school and work. School is okay...not paying attention to much. Work...i don't know how that is since i won't be back until tomorrow.

I have to work days, go to class from 630-950 THEN be in class the next morning at 10 am...great, just great

great...since i never make any cause id break em if i made em!

Just completely addicted to Sweeney Todd at the moment.  I would really like to go see it again, just now I don't really have the time to go again.  When it comes out on DVD I am going to sneak out and buy it (my parents don't want me to buy any more DVDs, that's why I'm sneaking out for it!)

So, it's the new year and I am starting to write a new manuscript.  The main thing I don't enjoy is having a great idea and then making it longer so it could actually have the chance to become a novel.  But this little task will be my goal of 2008.  I think tomorrow when I come home from work I will sit down and actually work on it. 

Classes begin on Monday night.  I am a bit nervous this semester because it is my last full one.  Pressure is on to pass all of these.  Then it's off to the real world for me.

Well, am working days tomorrow, so need to finish up a few tasks then hit the hay.  6am comes awfully early no matter what time ya go to bed!

Peace

Jen

Well, I guess I should actually catch up on my posts...Just haven't been in the mood to type...and for a few days now, just haven't been in the mood to be on the computer. Of course we can thank that to me finding a new series of novels that i just couldn't put down. Now, I have to wait until June...JUNE can't you believe it? for the next installment.  It's funny when my best friend asked me what I wanted for Christmas, it came down to books.  I went onto Amazon.com to look for books, and found this really interesting series.  I had that on the list, but also added some from this author I liked.  So when our exchange came around, she told me sadly that she couldn't find book one, so she didn't get it for me.  Then about a week later, she found it (for herself) read it, and became addicted. Told me to buy it as soon as I can.  So for Christmas, I got a $25 gift card to B&N from my aunt.  I went and bought the first four books, since well, that took me just above $25...I went and bought them on Christmas Day (got gift christmas eve) and couldn't wait to get them.
Then, the friday after Christmas, Maria (my best friend) and I went to the movies, sometime when I was there, the books were delivered.  I started book one right then.  I don't remember how long it took me exactly to read books 1-3, but it wasn't that long.  After work one day, I went and picked up book 5 cause i knew i would want to read it.  Then I read book 4 on new years day (after work) THEN I read book 5 the following day.  I still can't believe I read all those books in less than a week.  
Well, I would continue with this, however I need to get ready for the doctors.

Peace
Jen

haven't posted in a while...so thought i'd say hey..i'm still around...lol

if anyone wants, call me on me celly!

Through facebook, I found that they made a shirt that pokes fun of the fact that we don't have a football team but in a good way for us. Since we don't have a football team we ARE undefeated! I bought it in the bookstore which is in the basement of the OC and put it before heading upstairs.  I was going up, this guy was going down and I heard him snicker.  This is just a cute shirt and I am proud that I own one! Let's see if I get any more comments through out the day. I wonder if my Doctor is going to say something! That would be funny!

Song of the Day: Elephant and Castle by Houston Calls
I first heard of the song and group from a customer that came though drive-thru one day at work.  I went home and downloaded that song and a few others!  I LOVE this song and group.  I actually took my iPod with me for my drive to school, and this song came on during my final stages of the drive.  I then went and played it a second time. For those of you who are on my myspace, I have them in my friends.

Rachel left home last night
The city sleeps through train lights
Stars in the sky are all that keep her alive
She packed up and ditched the town
That saw all her ups and downs
She severed all ties to start all over again

Calling all tickets
The train leaves in minutes
Sits near the window
She turns her back on

The city she once called home
The yard where she ran through snow
The streets driven up and down and through and through
The lot where she'd stare at stars
The porch nights she'd count the cars
They're all memories of simpler times now gone

Thinking back to the first time
Her mom said, "I'll let you
Move on if you want to,
Remember I love you."

"Please just go little girl", the city calls to her
This is your chance, this is your freedom
"Please don't go little girl", her father says to her
It won't work out, it won't be easy

Holding back tears of joy
She steps out into the world
The city lights look just like they did on TV
She flails her arms
She runs both up and down the sidewalks

Thinking back to the times when
She spent it all dreaming
Now she's found what she wanted,
Found what she's needed

"Please just go little girl", the city calls to her
This is your chance, this is your freedom
"Please don't go little girl", her father says to her
It won't work out, it won't be easy

"Please just go little girl", the city calls to her
This is your chance, this is your freedom
"Please don't go little girl", her father says to her
It won't work out, it won't be easy

Please let go little girl of everything you know
You start it now, you've started over

I am extremely pleased to say that I am finished with the making of the videos for Wigs 4 Kids! I turned them in yesterday and Maggie liked the videos I did!  One thing of stress off my chest.
Work was okay today.  I still can't wait for my sleep in day. 

Song of the Day:
So today, I didn't really have a song stuck in my head today, probably cause I'm not feeling that good.  So, to pick out the SOTD I will press the next song button 5 times on my iTunes.  Life for Rent- Dido

I haven't really ever found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking

It's just a thought, only a thought

But if my life is for rent and I don't lean to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine

I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live my life more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
Cos there's really nothing left here to stop me

Need to go and finish my German HW. Gosh I don't want to do it.

Last night, I worked from about 4:30ish until 11:30 to finish up the memorial video for W4K.  I am hoping and praying that what I have as done, will truly be the finished project.  I don't know how much more editing on it I can do.  Every time I watched it completed last night (twice) I was moved and had tears in my eyes.  AND I'M THE ONE WHO MADE THE VIDEO!!! 

Right now, I am on campus and I feel like I could fall asleep very easily.  My eyelids are really heavy.  Hopefully the Thursday after the Gala, I can push back my WW meeting to sleep in.  I am serious, unless I'm scheduled to work 3-11 before then, I have to wait until October to sleep in.  I can't wait. 

I am thinking about adding a "Song of the Day" to this.  The only thing is, it might start to repeat fairly often, cause I'd call the "Song of the Day" the song that is stuck in my head.

Today's Song of the Day:
We're going a little old school here (the 90s maybe early 2000s) with If I Had a Million Dollars by Barenaked Ladies.

If I had a Million dollars....
I'd buy your love
I'd be rich
I'd buy you a green dress, but not a real green dress that's cruel.
I'd buy you a monkey. Haven't you always wanted a monKEY?

So after many years of this song being hidden in my internal Playlist, the song finally came out of hiding while I was at work yesterday. 

XOXOXO,
Toodles,
Jen

I was driving to school this morning, took 94 to 696 to 75 to 59.  That's my little route.  Anyways, I was on 75 around Big Beaver when the fast lane came to a COMPLETE stop.  I got out of that lane and proceeded to drive.  Something made of wood must've fallen off a truck and was in the fast lane.  My only real complaint is that NO ONE put on their four-ways.  I learned from my dad that you should do that when there is a problem on the roadway like that...black ice is another one...
So, anyways, I just wanted to vent.

In other news, I am working on the last leg of the Wigs 4 Kids VIDEOS, yes I now say videos because Maggie decided to change it up again.  I need to work on the timings of the slides and it is driving me nuts.  I'm thinking that I might have to create an entire NEW thing from scratch because of the problems I am having.  Wish me luck!

Toodles
Jen

**Please note, I truly tired to do spell check, but it was just confusing me this morning...so just live with the mistakes!**

Okay , so I've been in a bit of a creative mood the past few days.  Did a little writing.  Here's what came up...please note that there is three seperate things going on here...will try to make sure you know where the new one begins...cause there isn't any titles....lol

#1:
I want a love, like my favorites sing about.
Some one who will ease my fears and doubts.
We’ll share our hopes and dreams.
move towards them as a team.
I want a love, a love I can write about.

People in our past, shape us to who we are.
They took us up and down, sometimes knocking us far
We try to look up, but darkness is all around.
I need someone to bring me back my sight.
I need someone who’ll be my guiding light.


#2

I thought that I was all I needed.
I thought that I could get through it all by myself
But when the storms keep rollin’ back around
I realize I need a rock to help me stand my ground.



#3
Had a dream last night, of a man so sweet.
Had a dream last night of a man who made me feel complete.
He helped me avoid a disastrous plan,
We snuck away, him holding my hand.


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So, there they are.  I have more to the third one, however, it is written down on a paper that I do not have on me at the moment.  Let me know what you think!


Currently I am sitting in Cafe O'Bears (At school), drinking a Chai Tea Latte, procastanating on my W4K video that I am presenting later today when I go in to Volunteer.  Maybe I just need to wake up a bit more...Dillon woke me up at 6am, barking like right outside of my bedroom window.  So I got up, yelled at him, and went on to the computer and logged into Puzzle Pirates.  Talked with one of me best buddies, Queenie (Laura) whose an Aussie.  she's great! I so should have went back to sleep after I yelled at Dilly.  Cause I am feeling it now.  Went to bed at midnight because I had to work until 11 at whities. 

So anyways, like I said, I am sitting in Cafe O'Bears, at a window that outlooks a clearing, walkway.  I can see the building I have to go to at 10:40 (shudders-german class)  I can see the S&E building, the Library, and the fountain in front of it.  I kinda wish I had my camera on me today, cause there are some nice shots I could take.  /me slaps self for not thinking to keep it on me at all times.  I hope and pray that my class goes by fast, and that I don't have to be embarassed that I don't know much German anymore.  I just hope I can pass this class, so I don't have to worry about RETAKING it my last semester.  Wow, I still can't believe that I'm in my last year at OU...wootness!

XOXO
~Jen

I was writing a paper for my COM 399 class last night, and it reminded me of the though time I have being the "rock" in my family.  Back when my dad first started having his health problems, I was the one who was always strong for my mom.  I never let her see me cry.  I was always there as her shoulder to cry on.  And in that first time of his problems, I don't think I cried once.   I mean, we went through about 5 years of my dad's BAD health.  I still remember hearing my mom crying while she thought I was sleeping one night.  So I guess from that point on I knew I had to be strong for her.  A few years later, after the MAJOR evilness of my dad's problems, the first time I remembered crying was after they called my dad's doctor after he had some problems at home.  I had to call work, and after I got off the phone with them, is when I first broke down.  

Now about a year ago, early one morning, my dad was getting out of the tub (just before my mom was getting up for work)  While he was walking back from the bathroom to his bedroom, he passed out.  I didn't know it right away, but when my mom started yelling for me, I got up.  I had to call 9-1-1.  I was strong until I had to call my mom's boss.  While on the phone with her, I was crying.  My parents were still at the house, but the EMTs were there looking over my father, then getting him on the gurny.  I think after I was talking with her I must have sucked it up a little bit, because I was able to call my Aunt Brenda and Aunt Suzie. 

But now I've been thinking.  I'm always the strong one.  But who's going to be there for me, when I need a sholder to cry on?  Who will be my rock?

Well, I've finally done it...I chopped off my hair...a total of 13 inches for Wigs 4 Kids! :)  
Still getting use to my new hair...it's really short!


Before:
 

Durring:


After:



Had to go shopping today as well...well I love shopping so it wasn't too much of a chore....but my stereo/alarm clock (i use to set the clock for my wakeup alarm) died tuesday. I'd be trying to play a cd, and it would go and turn to tape all by itself.  when i set the alarm it would go off as tape even though I had it on FM radio.  So I went shopping to buy a replacement.  I got an actual alarm clock...but it's one of those iPod ones...i can listen to my iPod and charge it at the same time! Woot!

Well, have to get some sleep...working 7-3 tomorrow!

Huggles,
Jen

Okay, wow, I just woke up from a bad dream.  I just had a dream that my cousin's daughter went missing at a lake/pond/river that connects to a larger lake.  My cousin was over our house for a visit and while he was over a breaking news report came on our tv saying that his daughter was missing and whatever county had their dive teams looking for her.  His ex-wife came on the tv and she didn't seem THAT upset.  my cousin just looked pissed.  I had a feeling while having it, that she or her boyfriend killed her daughter.  Wow, I did not want to have a dream like that.  Hopefully it won't stay with me during the day.

Just when I have forgotten about somebody, I get an email saying that they're coming up to michigan for a visit.  Now, this was a mass email, so we all know that he could've just accidently clicked my name.  Should I email him back at all?  Not saying YES I'm free to meet up for coffee or something.  Just be like, hey stranger, how have you been? I'm only got two semesters left! or something like that?